Hi everyone... Hella shit happened. This is how it went, in order:

1. The wedding is off - long story.
2. I crashed my car on the freeway going to LA. I was moving over there.
3. I came back to Stockton because I didn't want to stay in LA.
4. My parents bought me a new car.
5. I tried to kill myself - and almost did but they "saved" me in the hospital.
6. I'm going to go somewhere for 3 months - so I'll be MIA until April.

Fuck this shit.

Been a long time since I posted... again.

I was just reading my posts from before and I can seriously say that I have changed enormously... I don't know who's been reading my xanga but hey! I'm getting married soon...

...too soon? I'm only nineteen. But I feel like I've found the man I could be with for the rest of my life. I'm through with playing the field, I'm through with games. I'm through with guys who don't know how to live their lives. I'm happy and I will be forever. Everything else that I want to do in life, I can do it with him.

Wish me luck!

hey ya'll!!

it's been a while since my last post... well, i'm not going to type up a loooong ass entry just to fill in the gap... imna start from right now

i'm here in stockton with my family again!!! lol hell yea! but it's hella boring out here in central valley... i miss tha bay area!!! but things are goin pretty good... i'm starting college next week.. i'm only takin three classes though... and then i'm lookin for a job right now...

i'm turning 18 in four months and twelve days!!!! daym.. can't wait...

I MADE IT!!!

I FINALLY GRADUATED!!!

06.17.05!!!

thanks to everyone who supported me
and believed in me... i love ya'll.

okay i aint gonna be postin for a while... but here's what's up

[*]...i only have 14 days of skoo left
[*]...june 17 is graduation
[*]...i have less than three weeks to pull ma shit together
[*]...i love my baby...i love you baby ko!!!!!!!!!
[*]...i got a second job...yay! more money fo me! lol

uhm... can't think of nothin else right now... see ya'll!!! if ya need me you can do several things:
[1]---leave me a c.o.m.m.e.n.t
[2]---email me
[3]---ym: shytears23
[4]---aim: buttterrrflyyy
[5]---call or txt: 707.655.0851

any encouragement will be greatly appreciated.